Poem: Dear. Meant to be

I know who you are. I know how you look. I know how your lips feel. I know what your embrace feel like. I've laid on your chest & heard your heartbeat echo in my ear. I've looked in your eyes & seen love there. I've hugged you and felt at home.

We are alike but we are different. We thought we was never meant to be. We were unexpected. We thought we were never suppose to happen.

Somehow we ended up on the same path. Somehow we wanted more. Somehow we caught feelings. Somehow we said goodbye.

But was it suppose to happen this way?

They say everything happens for a reason... So what's was our reason? A few kisses & hugs & a see u in another life? No, Mr. Meant to be, I don't believe that. I think fear go in the way. I think pride got in the way. I think circumances got in the way.... But only because we allowed them to.

I capture your heart a long time ago & didn't even know. You told me you were in love with me but in that same sentence you told me you know we couldn't be together... Why did you believe that without giving me a fair shot?

Now you've capture my heart but you still believe the same. You said we were meant to be... Well now I believe it too. Nothing hurt me more in my life except losing my father and losing you. Doesn't that mean something?

If you are happy without me in your life... Then I will admit.. It's me with the problem. I must be so blinded by my feelings that all logic has left me.

Mr. Meant to be, wasn't what we shared real?

When we kissed for the first time... Wasn't your heart beating fast?... Wasn't you nervous? When you said you loved me were u lying? When you held me tight & said you never wanted to let go... We're u faking it? When you said I meant more to you than anybody... We're you joking?

But nevertheless, I know your heart. I know who you are. I know your dreams. You are changing & I don't know if I will fit in that equation. I don't know if we will ever be together.

However, I know that I love you. I know we are meant to be.

We may or may not find a way back to each other. This may be the end of us. They say if you really love a person, you have to let them go if they want to go but if they come back it was really meant to be.

The selfish part of me want to keep loving you & holding on... even from a distance because I'm afraid you will find someone else.... The selfless part... The part that is in love with you... Says to let you go even if I have to cry a million times, think of you every minute, relive every memory in my head... But let you go.

Mr. Meant to be... so I've decided...

I have to let you go but know that I will always love you...