I'm sorry but I don't want to be an Emperor, that's not my business. I don't want to rule or conquer anyone. I should like to help everyone if possible, Jew, gentile, black man, white. We all want to help one another, human beings are like that. We all want to live by each other's happiness, not by each other's misery. We don't want to hate and despise one another. In this world there is room for everyone and the earth is rich and can provide for everyone.
The way of life can be free and beautiful. But we have lost the way.
Greed has poisoned men's souls, has barricaded the world with hate;
has goose-stepped us into misery and bloodshed.
We have developed speed but we have shut ourselves in:
machinery that gives abundance has left us in want.
Our knowledge has made us cynical,
our cleverness hard and unkind.
We think too much and feel too little:
More than machinery we need humanity;
More than cleverness we need kindness and gentleness.
Without these qualities, life will be violent and all will be lost.
The aeroplane and the radio have brought us closer together. The very nature of these inventions cries out for the goodness in men, cries out for universal brotherhood for the unity of us all. Even now my voice is reaching millions throughout the world, millions of despairing men, women and little children, victims of a system that makes men torture and imprison innocent people. To those who can hear me I say "Do not despair".
The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed, the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress: the hate of men will pass and dictators die and the power they took from the people, will return to the people and so long as men die [now] liberty will never perish. . .
Soldiers: don't give yourselves to brutes, men who despise you and enslave you, who regiment your lives, tell you what to do, what to think and what to feel, who drill you, diet you, treat you as cattle, as cannon fodder.
Don't give yourselves to these unnatural men, machine men, with machine minds and machine hearts. You are not machines. You are not cattle. You are men. You have the love of humanity in your hearts. You don't hate, only the unloved hate. Only the unloved and the unnatural. Soldiers: don't fight for slavery, fight for liberty.
In the seventeenth chapter of Saint Luke it is written:
- "The kingdom of God is within man"
Not one man, nor a group of men, but in all men; in you, the people.
You the people have the power, the power to create machines, the power to create happiness. You the people have the power to make life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure. Then in the name of democracy let's use that power, let us all unite. Let us fight for a new world, a decent world that will give men a chance to work, that will give you the future and old age and security. By the promise of these things, brutes have risen to power, but they lie. They do not fulfil their promise, they never will. Dictators free themselves but they enslave the people. Now let us fight to fulfil that promise. Let us fight to free the world, to do away with national barriers, do away with greed, with hate and intolerance. Let us fight for a world of reason, a world where science and progress will lead to all men's happiness.
Soldiers! In the name of democracy: let us all unite!
- Charlie Chaplin in "The Great Dictator"
Monday, June 4, 2012
Do people love pain?
Do people like to suffer? Do people enjoy pain? The most obvious answer is no, but some people actions make it seem like the answer is yes. I wouldn't say people consciously like to suffer, maybe it's unconsciously. It seems like the more you treat someone good, the worst they treat you and take advantage of that good. Maybe it's the deep mental conditioning we endure as humans that tell us pain in some way is good. Most common saying "pain makes you grow". But does it? It should make you wiser or more aware of others. But why would anyone want to do another wrong or treat them badly?
People say its human nature. I say human conditioning. Maybe on a deep level it's much deeper than that.
Until next time:)
People say its human nature. I say human conditioning. Maybe on a deep level it's much deeper than that.
Until next time:)
Monday, April 30, 2012
Short story: The fading of us
It was the month of July, you wrote something that was never written to me before. Your words read "I'm secretly in love with you". My heart skipped beats as I read that line over and over... In shock. Could you really be in love with me?
My friend died and you were there. You listened. You told me anything I needed, you would provide. You made me laugh after I've been crying for days. You got my mind off the pain by telling me your love life drama & secrets for hours. You held me at the end of our conversation for five minutes. But it felt like forever. I became addicted to your hugs from that moment forth.
"I just want to kiss you" you said... But I was too afraid to. "You making me feel like I don't deserve you" you pleaded... But I was scared to become physically close to you.
We kissed for the first time in September at 5:30 in the morning. We were both shaking...it could've been from our nerves or the morning breeze. Our hearts were beating fast & breathing became difficult. You licked your lips as our lips met at last. I ripped your jacket that night from nervousness and you just calmly said "we will work through whatever... together".
We constantly talked and wanted to spend as much time as we could together. You held my hand in the crowds and held me close with the most amazing embrace. We laughed together, we were stubborn together, we talked about everything... We created our own capsule together.
But outside that capsule, you were still casually dating and I had a drama filled situation that allowed no dating. Nevertheless, you still saw her while I only had eyes for you.
When she broke your trust, I was still there. We had no obligation to each other but we wanted each other. When she was no longer an option, my bad situation was more evident. You couldn't deal with it but no one was stopping us from exploring our feelings for each other. I knew you couldn't accept it... So I told you to continue to date and don't fall any deeper for me.
You said you couldn't help your feelings for me, that you knew you would get hurt eventually. But you said you couldn't help but want to be with me anyway. I tried to fight my feelings because I didn't want to be responsible for any pain that may come your way. You warned me something bad would happen. You told me it would hurt you if it did. I told you I wouldn't hurt you. Unfortunately that didn't cover someone else actions.
Your prediction came true. Something bad did happen and you did get hurt. So hurt... you ran back to her and gave her apart of you that was meant for me. You blame me for what happened and you left me to suffer your absence. I knew you would that's why I didn't want to tell you.
We came back together but that's when things started to change. It no longer was about pure emotions and feelings. It became about the sexual tension between us and... her again. You grew more sexually frustrated and she satisfied that. I fell for you more and you became more cautious with me because you didn't want to get hurt again.
The love I thought went more to feelings of like. Jealousy became more apparent from both of us. We started seeing each other less, we started talking to each other less.
You told me it felt like you were in a love triangle. Her, another her, and me. I told you I was not apart of that but you said I was because you liked me so much. You told me that day, that you didn't want to hurt me. I said you wouldn't but you insist you felt you would. You kissed me and said "I hope I don't hurt you". I guess that prediction came true too because I'm hurting.
I started going on dates, you didn't like that. You became afraid to lose me. You warned that if I fell for someone else I would lose you as a friend and possible lover. So I started pushing guys away because I wanted you and only you.
We continue to have outbursts of passion but you made it obvious she was the safer choice. I wanted you to be mines so I started to complain. Your eyes assured me, it was me you wanted... Risks and all.
I told you we should only be strictly friends because you were confusing me. Our attraction fought against that. The hope of us ever being together started to die slowly.
My heart broke when you told me you wanted to give her another chance. I cried that day. I guess that's the day I realize how attached I really was to you. You comfort me in your arms as your text replayed in my mind that we would always be friends that she could never change us. I wanted to freeze that moment as you held me tight.
I told myself that I had to let you go. That I wasn't strong enough to watch in the background as you got closer to her.
A week later, she told you to lose her number and you were back in my arms and caught up in another one of our passionate outbursts.
I don't quite know the month when things started changing rapidly. Your hugs started feeling different. That look in your eyes for me was slowly fading. Your texts started slowing. Talks on the phone was now occasional. Everything became about "why weren't we sexual?" That you had needs and I wasnt doing nothing about it. My morals became a problem. Your trust issues became a problem. Going out became a problem. Time became a problem. But my situation became the biggest problem of all.
You said my situation is too much for us to ever be together. I guess us being meant to be was a lie.
My presence stopped exciting you. You stopped wanting to know my mind. Our conversations stopped. The love in you hugs stopped. The light in your eyes for me stopped. The tenderness in your kisses stopped. The hope had died.
You don't want me to know anything anymore. I don't know your feelings anymore. The sexual tension is still there but nothing will survive on that alone. Long ago, You told me to fix my situation so we could be together but I didn't, I know the blame is mines too.
You gave up and shut down. I still believe we could have something great together. It hurts seeing us fall apart. I guess I should've gotten the hint when you said "we will never happen". My heart is yours but your heart is closing towards me. You once said I was your best friend, the closest you ever been to a woman. I guess that was also a lie.
My heart aches because I can't keep holding on while you are letting go. My heart cannot be yours while yours is becoming someone else's. I wish I could rewind. I wish these tears didn't fall from my eyes. I wish I didn't miss you everyday. I wish I was brave enough to embrace the unknown. I wish the timing was perfect. I wish we were one step closer to being together instead of one step away from being strangers. I wish this was a love story instead of a heart breaking one.
I know letting you go will be hard. I know seeing you move on will be hard. I know getting rid of these feelings will be hard. I know not feeling your love will be hard. I know no longer feeling your lips will be hard. No longer feeling your arms will be hard. No longer seeing your smile will be hard. I know missing you every second will be hard. I know having these memories of you will be hard. Losing our closeness has been hard already. But I have to keep going... I have to move on.
I knew you couldn't wait forever for me. Marilyn Monroe once said "something worth having, is worth waiting for". I wish this was the case. Only time will tell and only the future holds the outcome.
I'm hurting... My heart... My body... My mind... I'm hurting.
As we are fading away... The fading of us.
My friend died and you were there. You listened. You told me anything I needed, you would provide. You made me laugh after I've been crying for days. You got my mind off the pain by telling me your love life drama & secrets for hours. You held me at the end of our conversation for five minutes. But it felt like forever. I became addicted to your hugs from that moment forth.
"I just want to kiss you" you said... But I was too afraid to. "You making me feel like I don't deserve you" you pleaded... But I was scared to become physically close to you.
We kissed for the first time in September at 5:30 in the morning. We were both shaking...it could've been from our nerves or the morning breeze. Our hearts were beating fast & breathing became difficult. You licked your lips as our lips met at last. I ripped your jacket that night from nervousness and you just calmly said "we will work through whatever... together".
We constantly talked and wanted to spend as much time as we could together. You held my hand in the crowds and held me close with the most amazing embrace. We laughed together, we were stubborn together, we talked about everything... We created our own capsule together.
But outside that capsule, you were still casually dating and I had a drama filled situation that allowed no dating. Nevertheless, you still saw her while I only had eyes for you.
When she broke your trust, I was still there. We had no obligation to each other but we wanted each other. When she was no longer an option, my bad situation was more evident. You couldn't deal with it but no one was stopping us from exploring our feelings for each other. I knew you couldn't accept it... So I told you to continue to date and don't fall any deeper for me.
You said you couldn't help your feelings for me, that you knew you would get hurt eventually. But you said you couldn't help but want to be with me anyway. I tried to fight my feelings because I didn't want to be responsible for any pain that may come your way. You warned me something bad would happen. You told me it would hurt you if it did. I told you I wouldn't hurt you. Unfortunately that didn't cover someone else actions.
Your prediction came true. Something bad did happen and you did get hurt. So hurt... you ran back to her and gave her apart of you that was meant for me. You blame me for what happened and you left me to suffer your absence. I knew you would that's why I didn't want to tell you.
We came back together but that's when things started to change. It no longer was about pure emotions and feelings. It became about the sexual tension between us and... her again. You grew more sexually frustrated and she satisfied that. I fell for you more and you became more cautious with me because you didn't want to get hurt again.
The love I thought went more to feelings of like. Jealousy became more apparent from both of us. We started seeing each other less, we started talking to each other less.
You told me it felt like you were in a love triangle. Her, another her, and me. I told you I was not apart of that but you said I was because you liked me so much. You told me that day, that you didn't want to hurt me. I said you wouldn't but you insist you felt you would. You kissed me and said "I hope I don't hurt you". I guess that prediction came true too because I'm hurting.
I started going on dates, you didn't like that. You became afraid to lose me. You warned that if I fell for someone else I would lose you as a friend and possible lover. So I started pushing guys away because I wanted you and only you.
We continue to have outbursts of passion but you made it obvious she was the safer choice. I wanted you to be mines so I started to complain. Your eyes assured me, it was me you wanted... Risks and all.
I told you we should only be strictly friends because you were confusing me. Our attraction fought against that. The hope of us ever being together started to die slowly.
My heart broke when you told me you wanted to give her another chance. I cried that day. I guess that's the day I realize how attached I really was to you. You comfort me in your arms as your text replayed in my mind that we would always be friends that she could never change us. I wanted to freeze that moment as you held me tight.
I told myself that I had to let you go. That I wasn't strong enough to watch in the background as you got closer to her.
A week later, she told you to lose her number and you were back in my arms and caught up in another one of our passionate outbursts.
I don't quite know the month when things started changing rapidly. Your hugs started feeling different. That look in your eyes for me was slowly fading. Your texts started slowing. Talks on the phone was now occasional. Everything became about "why weren't we sexual?" That you had needs and I wasnt doing nothing about it. My morals became a problem. Your trust issues became a problem. Going out became a problem. Time became a problem. But my situation became the biggest problem of all.
You said my situation is too much for us to ever be together. I guess us being meant to be was a lie.
My presence stopped exciting you. You stopped wanting to know my mind. Our conversations stopped. The love in you hugs stopped. The light in your eyes for me stopped. The tenderness in your kisses stopped. The hope had died.
You don't want me to know anything anymore. I don't know your feelings anymore. The sexual tension is still there but nothing will survive on that alone. Long ago, You told me to fix my situation so we could be together but I didn't, I know the blame is mines too.
You gave up and shut down. I still believe we could have something great together. It hurts seeing us fall apart. I guess I should've gotten the hint when you said "we will never happen". My heart is yours but your heart is closing towards me. You once said I was your best friend, the closest you ever been to a woman. I guess that was also a lie.
My heart aches because I can't keep holding on while you are letting go. My heart cannot be yours while yours is becoming someone else's. I wish I could rewind. I wish these tears didn't fall from my eyes. I wish I didn't miss you everyday. I wish I was brave enough to embrace the unknown. I wish the timing was perfect. I wish we were one step closer to being together instead of one step away from being strangers. I wish this was a love story instead of a heart breaking one.
I know letting you go will be hard. I know seeing you move on will be hard. I know getting rid of these feelings will be hard. I know not feeling your love will be hard. I know no longer feeling your lips will be hard. No longer feeling your arms will be hard. No longer seeing your smile will be hard. I know missing you every second will be hard. I know having these memories of you will be hard. Losing our closeness has been hard already. But I have to keep going... I have to move on.
I knew you couldn't wait forever for me. Marilyn Monroe once said "something worth having, is worth waiting for". I wish this was the case. Only time will tell and only the future holds the outcome.
I'm hurting... My heart... My body... My mind... I'm hurting.
As we are fading away... The fading of us.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Introduction to the short story: Extreme Infatuation or love?
I wrote this on December 5...
I know I like him but I think I really like him now and may possibly love him. Wow, did I just say I might love him?... I think I do or could it be infatuation? But I'm scared he might not feel the same. I hope he does and it seem like he does but I don't know for sure, absolutely and completely. He mention three times in the summer he loves me but I think he meant it as friends or strong like. Let's go back to my feelings tho, shall we?
I think about him all the time. I day dream about him when I'm bored. I dream about him at night. I crave his touch, his kiss, his hugs constantly. I want to see him all the time. I want to hear his voice. I can't wait to get his texts. I miss him so much everyday. I love his face. I love his smile. I love his expressions, I love his eyes. I love his lips. I loved his smell. I love his voice. I love his style. I love his laugh. I love his walk. I love when he holds my hand. I love when he needs someone to talk to he thinks of me. I love that he listens to me. I love that he cares about my feelings.
I can tell him anything. I can make him laugh. I can make him smile. I can make him curious. I can surprise him. I make him happy.
He makes me melt. He makes me want him. He makes me blush. He makes me shy. He makes me think about us. He makes me think of a future with him. He makes me wonder. He makes me want to love him. He makes me weak in my knees. He makes me laugh. He makes me happy.
We are so similar in so many ways but so different in other ways. He's so calm and laid back. He's so stubborn. He worries constantly. He makes me feel like a woman. He makes my body crave him as a man.
His kiss is always so sweet and careful, so gentle and loving. When he's affectionate towards me, it makes me want to love him. His kisses on my face shows me what I've been deprived of for so many years. When he put his fingers through my hair and behind my ears, I crave his hands on other places on my body. He awakens my sexuality. He awakens my affection. He awakens my heart.
He has capture my thoughts. He has capture my emotions. He has capture my heart. He has capture me. I just hope he feels the same and that I've capture his heart as well. I hope he's falling in love with me.
I know the timing for us sucks but real soon we will get Our opportunity to be together, I just know it... Everything will work out.
I know I like him but I think I really like him now and may possibly love him. Wow, did I just say I might love him?... I think I do or could it be infatuation? But I'm scared he might not feel the same. I hope he does and it seem like he does but I don't know for sure, absolutely and completely. He mention three times in the summer he loves me but I think he meant it as friends or strong like. Let's go back to my feelings tho, shall we?
I think about him all the time. I day dream about him when I'm bored. I dream about him at night. I crave his touch, his kiss, his hugs constantly. I want to see him all the time. I want to hear his voice. I can't wait to get his texts. I miss him so much everyday. I love his face. I love his smile. I love his expressions, I love his eyes. I love his lips. I loved his smell. I love his voice. I love his style. I love his laugh. I love his walk. I love when he holds my hand. I love when he needs someone to talk to he thinks of me. I love that he listens to me. I love that he cares about my feelings.
I can tell him anything. I can make him laugh. I can make him smile. I can make him curious. I can surprise him. I make him happy.
He makes me melt. He makes me want him. He makes me blush. He makes me shy. He makes me think about us. He makes me think of a future with him. He makes me wonder. He makes me want to love him. He makes me weak in my knees. He makes me laugh. He makes me happy.
We are so similar in so many ways but so different in other ways. He's so calm and laid back. He's so stubborn. He worries constantly. He makes me feel like a woman. He makes my body crave him as a man.
His kiss is always so sweet and careful, so gentle and loving. When he's affectionate towards me, it makes me want to love him. His kisses on my face shows me what I've been deprived of for so many years. When he put his fingers through my hair and behind my ears, I crave his hands on other places on my body. He awakens my sexuality. He awakens my affection. He awakens my heart.
He has capture my thoughts. He has capture my emotions. He has capture my heart. He has capture me. I just hope he feels the same and that I've capture his heart as well. I hope he's falling in love with me.
I know the timing for us sucks but real soon we will get Our opportunity to be together, I just know it... Everything will work out.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
You may want something good but are you ready?
People say all the time "I want a real relationship", " I want real love", "I want a good man", "I want a good woman"... etc. Question is, are you ready or prepare to handle and keep something good? People always want what they are not ready to have, or crave something they don't intend to keep. Then what happens is someone ends up heart broken, disappointed, upset, or changed. Changed meaning their whole thinking gets screwed up, like they proclaim to themselves "I don't deserve to have something good"... "all men are dogs"... "all women are sluts"... " I can't trust anyone"... I hate commitment"... etc. And what happens is what you think becomes your reality. Every guy you meet will be that lying, cheating dog in a disguise. And every women you meet will be the undercover slut. Or every relationship you get will be trustless and never committed.
You can want all you want but if you are not emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually ready... It won't last forever. Someone in the relationship will feel unsatisfied or unfulfilled. Someone will change who you thought they were right before your eyes. Some will run from that great relationship. Some will continue to lie and cheat causing destruction to that relationship. Why because they may have wanted what they got and wasn't ready for it or their thinking was above^ and they got exactly what they believed to be true.
All is dysfunctional and for love or anything to work or last your whole being have to be ready. Here's a example: most people want to win the lottery, some people do but are they ready to win millions of dollars? The majority that win are not, that's why the majority that wins the lottery (millions of dollars) are in debt by the next year. Now the ones that remain rich with their winnings are the ones that were already rich in their life. They already felt rich in their job, family, love... So when they won millions of dollars, they didn't blow through that money but continue as if they didn't win at all. Why? Because they already felt rich in life (completely ready on all levels). So they were already rich before they became rich, which kept them rich. Get it?
If you want something, change your thinking, believe in every inch of your being that you can have it. Then do the inner work. Start preparing for what you want. Get ready on all levels (emotionally fit to handle what you want, physically capable to deal with what you want, mentally stable to function with what you want, and spiritually tune into yourself &God for strength/guidance).
It take work to prepare for what you want, to get what you want, and to keep what you want. It's out there and you can have it. Just truly believe you can get it. Do the inner and outer work and love the journey and yourself. Anything is possible. Anything good is already yours once you believe that it is. Preparation and patience beautiful people, you can get what you want and keep it forever.
Until next time:)
You can want all you want but if you are not emotionally, mentally, physically, and spiritually ready... It won't last forever. Someone in the relationship will feel unsatisfied or unfulfilled. Someone will change who you thought they were right before your eyes. Some will run from that great relationship. Some will continue to lie and cheat causing destruction to that relationship. Why because they may have wanted what they got and wasn't ready for it or their thinking was above^ and they got exactly what they believed to be true.
All is dysfunctional and for love or anything to work or last your whole being have to be ready. Here's a example: most people want to win the lottery, some people do but are they ready to win millions of dollars? The majority that win are not, that's why the majority that wins the lottery (millions of dollars) are in debt by the next year. Now the ones that remain rich with their winnings are the ones that were already rich in their life. They already felt rich in their job, family, love... So when they won millions of dollars, they didn't blow through that money but continue as if they didn't win at all. Why? Because they already felt rich in life (completely ready on all levels). So they were already rich before they became rich, which kept them rich. Get it?
If you want something, change your thinking, believe in every inch of your being that you can have it. Then do the inner work. Start preparing for what you want. Get ready on all levels (emotionally fit to handle what you want, physically capable to deal with what you want, mentally stable to function with what you want, and spiritually tune into yourself &God for strength/guidance).
It take work to prepare for what you want, to get what you want, and to keep what you want. It's out there and you can have it. Just truly believe you can get it. Do the inner and outer work and love the journey and yourself. Anything is possible. Anything good is already yours once you believe that it is. Preparation and patience beautiful people, you can get what you want and keep it forever.
Until next time:)
I thought I was detached from him:(
I'm ready to admit to myself that there is still a great deal of attachment that I have to my ex. I've realized this a long time ago but wanted to deny it to myself. I've spent four years with this guy so I would say it could be normal to still have some form of attachment left. But that is not true, the bonds between us is still not completely broken, meaning I'm not completely moved on. If a person can alter your mood or emotions by his or her words or actions, he/she still have control over you. Just like if you are in a relationship and your ex can cause emotions to arise in you, good or bad, you are not over them.
Now my ex causes my mood to go down, makes me feel sad, makes me feel jealousy, makes me mad, makes me feel guilty, makes me feel hurt, frustrated, just to name some. That's alot for an ex to be able to do.
No person, I don't care who they are, should have that much power over you emotionally, spiritually, physically or mentally to cause a shift in yourself. And the only reason he has this power over me emotionally is because I allow him to. So why am I allowing him this power? My attachment to him is still there and I still care about him. But it's possible to care about someone but not be attach. I can care about his well being but he shouldn't be able to rob me of my happiness.
I need to do more inner work because I have to heal the reason why I am allowing him this power. I truly want him to be happy in his life but I can't allow this to continue with me. I have to detach and it may be hard to find the root but I will never be the happiest I can be unless only I alone can control the power to my emotions.
Until next time:)
Now my ex causes my mood to go down, makes me feel sad, makes me feel jealousy, makes me mad, makes me feel guilty, makes me feel hurt, frustrated, just to name some. That's alot for an ex to be able to do.
No person, I don't care who they are, should have that much power over you emotionally, spiritually, physically or mentally to cause a shift in yourself. And the only reason he has this power over me emotionally is because I allow him to. So why am I allowing him this power? My attachment to him is still there and I still care about him. But it's possible to care about someone but not be attach. I can care about his well being but he shouldn't be able to rob me of my happiness.
I need to do more inner work because I have to heal the reason why I am allowing him this power. I truly want him to be happy in his life but I can't allow this to continue with me. I have to detach and it may be hard to find the root but I will never be the happiest I can be unless only I alone can control the power to my emotions.
Until next time:)
Poem: What is this?
When I see your face, I can't help but smile.
The simple pressure of your lips upon mines is unbearable.
The heat from your arms around me causes me to burn inside.
The touch of your hands relaxes my marathon mind.
The sweet truth in your scent makes me breathe clarity.
But I'm scare, terrified, what is this?
Is this real? Or just another tale of heartbreak?
But when I see your face, I can't help but smile because I'm no longer afraid.
I can't control my body around you.
The passionate kisses erases the pain.
The look in your eyes heals my heart.
The sucks on my neck accelerates my pulse.
The love in your fingers as you run them through my hair makes me weak.
But I'm scare, confused, what is this?
Is this only sexual? Or could it blossom into true love?
But when I see your face, I can't help but smile because I'm no longer in doubt.
I don't like not speaking to you.
The hurt I felt when you said goodbye was misery.
The talks on the phone even the silent ones are cherished.
The texts you send are like sunshine.
The voice you have is irresistible to my ears.
But I'm scared, detaching, what is this?
Are we best friends? Or will you just take this away again?
But when I see your face, I can't help but smile because I'm attached to you.
I'm not your girl. We both are single.
Our relationship can cause pain and destroy friendships.
Neither one of us want to take that risk but we can't fight it either.
Our hearts are pumping but our brains are lacking the blood supply.
The tension, the frustration, the fear is weighing on us.
But I'm scared, there's no commitment, what is this?
Are we friends? Secret lovers? Or just two people that will never be nothing more then this?
But when I see your face, "what is this?" disappears and I know that we just might be meant to be and nothing in this world can stop that but time. So I can't help but to smile because you are smiling back at me.
The simple pressure of your lips upon mines is unbearable.
The heat from your arms around me causes me to burn inside.
The touch of your hands relaxes my marathon mind.
The sweet truth in your scent makes me breathe clarity.
But I'm scare, terrified, what is this?
Is this real? Or just another tale of heartbreak?
But when I see your face, I can't help but smile because I'm no longer afraid.
I can't control my body around you.
The passionate kisses erases the pain.
The look in your eyes heals my heart.
The sucks on my neck accelerates my pulse.
The love in your fingers as you run them through my hair makes me weak.
But I'm scare, confused, what is this?
Is this only sexual? Or could it blossom into true love?
But when I see your face, I can't help but smile because I'm no longer in doubt.
I don't like not speaking to you.
The hurt I felt when you said goodbye was misery.
The talks on the phone even the silent ones are cherished.
The texts you send are like sunshine.
The voice you have is irresistible to my ears.
But I'm scared, detaching, what is this?
Are we best friends? Or will you just take this away again?
But when I see your face, I can't help but smile because I'm attached to you.
I'm not your girl. We both are single.
Our relationship can cause pain and destroy friendships.
Neither one of us want to take that risk but we can't fight it either.
Our hearts are pumping but our brains are lacking the blood supply.
The tension, the frustration, the fear is weighing on us.
But I'm scared, there's no commitment, what is this?
Are we friends? Secret lovers? Or just two people that will never be nothing more then this?
But when I see your face, "what is this?" disappears and I know that we just might be meant to be and nothing in this world can stop that but time. So I can't help but to smile because you are smiling back at me.
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